Friday, February 20, 2009

A letter to a friend

Dear friend,

I’ve been trying so hard to reach you to the extent when I felt no less than a fool. I’ve searched for every possible medium to access you from messages, phones only to screw up all over. And since I’ve cracked out of ideas, this shall be my last resort.

I am cursed a stubborn girl, you see. I have rarely brought myself so low as to utter any words of apology regardless of my fault. But for you, my so-called dignified principle which I salute as highly as I do my proud reputation suddenly doesn’t matter anymore. Everything stops to matter.

Forgive me, my friend. I.. am.. beg-ging.. you.. please..

I know I’ve wronged you in so many ways emotionally and perhaps even mentally. I’ve realized that my calling annoyed your privacy, my choice of time is irrational and ridiculous, my purpose gibberish. Hey! Any mortal will be tormented by such tall demands, right?

You know what, of all this while I tell you I called because I am bored was as simply as to cover the silly fact that I just wanna call you because I want to! Just consider my nonsensical calling as a way for a friend to keep in touch and tolerate my behavior under immaturity and childishness. Think whatever, okay?

I want you to know that whatever I did, is never intended to hurt. Why should I? When hurting you will only hurt myself. Thus, please my friend, OPEN UP to me (in a peaceful and educated manner, please) so that I would know! Don’t let your misery accumulates, before you knew it, it’ll turn to something uglier.

I feel guilty that of all those years, you’ve taught me friendship, and all I've taught you is how to hate.

Posted by a lifelong learner at 8:31 AM